Photo: Braxton at his first baseball game, Kansas City Royals vs.Yankees
Jenny Razor, a high school English teacher at Omaha Public Schools, wrote this blog for momaha.
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He had that guilty look of pleasure on his face, searching for a video clip on his iPod in the corner of the room.
Once he found it, my husand said to Braxton, “Do you want to watch something with daddy?”
Our son, of course, jumped at the opportunity to watch TV.
Unable to resist, I asked what we were watching now. He said, “you’ll see” as he pulled up the video of T-Rex’s famous roar at the end of the film “Jurassic Park”. This was the second such scene I had witnessed this week: Anthony sharing a love from his childhood with our son.
Earlier it had been a scene from “Star Wars” (one appropriate for his age) and with Braxton on his lap, they stared at the screen enjoying the moment. One had a look of happiness; the other’s expression was more curiosity and a little bit of awe.
But the sweetness of these moments lies in the gift Anthony wants to give to our son: the simple pleasures and happiness of his youth.
Early on in our journey as parents, I recognized that one of Anthony’s favorite parts of parenting was the opportunity to relive his childhood. This happened through the dusting off of old toys that his parents still had boxed up that were slowly making their way to our house. Or in the search for our new home that would have some of the same features that he had loved of the house he grew up in. His most recent obsession has been with movie scenes, books, and songs; pretty much anything that offered the chance to remember being a kid.
Some might see this as an escape from adulthood, but in my eyes it is so much more.
Of all the gifts that a parent wants to give their child, underlies it all, is the opportunity to share all that the world has to offer. For both Anthony and I, we truly relish introducing Braxton to a new experience. In the everyday responsibility of being an adult I have enjoyed the fact that our son offers us a chance to rediscover all those experiences of childhood that weren’t even completely appreciated until they were gone.
Some say ignorance is bliss, but perhaps a part of the bliss is in the opportunity to discover something you didn’t know before. When Braxton experiences something new for the first time, he may have some of what we enjoyed of it in him, but he also brings something new to it and that is the novelty for us as parents.
What will he make of it? We wonder.
And then, suddenly, we, ourselves, are kids again.
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